Hay Buhay.. Parang Buhay..

"why am i fighting to live, if im just living to fight? why am I trying to see when there aint nothin in sight? why am i trying to give when no one gives me a try? why am i dying to live, if im just living to die?"

Galing to sa kantang Runnin' ng late rapper na si Tupac Shakur. Kung iisipin mo ang buhay napaka ironic diba.. may mga bagay na nanjan pero nde mo naman kailangan, pero ung mga bagay na wala un ang hinahanap natin.

Cguro talagang human nature na un, craving for something u dont have, eh panu mo nga naman mapapahalagahan ang isang bagay na araw araw mo na nakikita, ika nga nila, ur already used to it.. wala ng something special, at lalong wala na ang feeling ng excitement. pagkatapos pag nawala naman ung bagay na un, iiyak iyak ka.. dun mo malalman na importante pala..


Kagaya ng mga tao sa buhay natin, madalas nde natin sinasabi o ine-express kung gano cla kahalaga kasi lam natin nanjan lang cla.. tapos pag namatay cla (knock on wood..) saka tau magkakandarapa ng pag-iyak.. nde mo lam minsan kung ka-plastican nalang o ano.. xempre masakit talaga.. pero come to think of it.. do we really grieve because we lost someone or we're grieving coz that someone went ahead of us..?? nalulungkot ka kasi naiwan ka.. hindi ba napakaselfish naman nun.. 


im not saying na masama ang umiyak.. napaka impokrita ko naman kung sasabihin kong nde ako iiyak pagnawalan ako.. pero all im saying is we should learn how to express our feelings, kung galit ka magalit ka, kung malungkot ka umiyak ka, kung masaya ka tumawa ka. dont hold back, kasi malay mo too late na pala. at least alam ng mga taong mahal natin what we really feel for them hindi ung kung kelan wala saka ka magnagangangawa.. 


Kagaya din ng mga nagmamahal, ung torpe o ung mga hesitant, xempre minsa nagho-hold back tau kasi ayaw natin ng feeling of rejection, and believe me i had my moments.. (ouch un!!) pero diba, we need to face our fears kasi we'll never know what will happen next.. malay mo, head over heels pala sau ung tao pero like u hesitant din xa.  tapos pag nakita mo na xa kasama ng iba manghihinayang ka.. 


Kaya make up your mind people, anu ba talaga gusto mo.. ung tipong laging may what if sa end ng bawat sentence mo.. or kahit masakit close book na, wala ng chapter 2 and hindi ka na aasa..

JEJEMON!!!

i was reading my tweets this morning.. tapos lagi kong nakikita ung word na JEJEMON!! nag post pa nga ko sa facebook page ko.. ask ko mga friends ko kung anu meaning nun.. hahaha.. funny talaga.. nde ko lam kung tumatanda na ba talaga ko or what!!  but i just read na it means alien language like.. "EeHhLoW" nyetang yan hello lang pala.. parang mawawalan ka ng hininga pag sinabi mo un.. as in effort kung effort!!

And what really funny is.. sikat na sikat sa mga new generations ang ganitong language.. nde ko nga lam kung cnong alien ang nagpauso nun.. before pa nauso yan.. i was viewing mg sis page on friendster.. (la pa xa facebook nun.. whehehe..)
 natatawa ako pag nababasa ko ung "jajaja" or "jejeje" that time din sabi ko anu ba to.. do they mean something or what.. nyeta again.. tawa pala un.. toinkz!!

HIndi ko nga alam baka pag balik ko ng pinas.. ma culture shock na ako.. hahaha.. kasi ba naman masyado nang nagiging techy ang mga pips.. im techy din naman pero i wasnt aware of those alien language thats taking over our country.. specially the younger generations..

One time nga, i was chatting with my older sis sa YM.. believe it or not.. she was speaking the same language!! na shock talaga ko kasi she was 4 years older than me.. then she was talking like that.. feeling ko tuloy ang tanda tanda ko na.. ung uso lang kasi sa time namin was EPAL and NENANG GATA.. at least diba.. understandable pa din.. pero ung "e0wSsZz pOwhhZzmUsZtAhH nUah pOwhHzz kEowHsz?".... mapapa HUH!! at i mean HUH ka nalang..
before paiklian pa ng txt kasi la pa unli nun.. pa " HU U" lang diba.. pero ung "AaAiIiSsZzzz GwAn0unhZz PouuHzZz Buhh?!!" wadapak!! to the point na nde mo na talaga maintindihan ang sinasabi nila..

Believe me.. i dont hate them.. im in the middle of natutuwa and natatawa.. nde mo kasi alam kung nagpapatawa cla or nagpapacute lang.. hahaha..

ZaHhLaHhMaTh Za PUgBaBasA... whahaha.. nde ko lam kung tama ba.. pero at least i tried diba.. parang engot lang.. whahaha.. peace out!

Blog.. A Way of Life

Hi mga ka-blog.. its been a long time since i've posted something.. (LMAO.. other from my forwarded emails..) wala kasi ako sa mood magsulat.. haha.. kesa naman kung anu anu lang lagay ko diba.. kahit papano gusto ko naman eh ung matutuwa mga readers ko.. (kahit wala pa kong followers.. i still manage to get 94 hits.. kahit na most of them galing sakin.. ROFLOL!!...) 


First time kong narinig ung word na blog eh 2002 ata.. nde ko pa lam kung anu un.. (friendster at chat pa lang kasi ang alam ko.. ehehehe), pero whats in this blog.. for me its a way of life.. madami satin mga introvert.. ung mga tipong nde nila ma-express ung feelings nila.. cla ung mga taong nakakausap na ng mga taga zimbabwe and yet nde nila kilala ang mga kapitbahay nila... uu totoo un.. whahaha.. 


Blog helps us to channel our stress.. minsan kasi merong mga bagay na hirap taung sabihin lalu na ung sa mga nakakailala satin.. its better for us to shout it to the world and kesa i-share sa mga close friends natin.. 


Minsan kahit walang makabasa ok lang.. ang satin eh ung ma-express ung emotions natin.. minsan emo minsan praning or minsan parang baliw lang.. (parang ako ngaun!!) pero watch out lang sa mga net bullies.. (dami nyan!!) cla ung mga taong walang magawa sa life nila.. kaya kahit anu man sabihin nila.. dont mind them.. nde mo naman cla kilala.. wag tau gumaya sa mga taong nagpapakamatay cuz they cant take them!!


Minsan naman may mga blogs din na kahit anu nalang.. like.. 'ang siopao ko nde gawa sa pusa' blah blah blah.. pero sometimes worth reading din lalu na pag wala ka talagang magawa!! cge basa, post.. kahit anu nalang.. whahahaha.. peace out po!!

Amazing Dubai-Atlantis Hotel, Palm Jumeirah

Sent by Varsha Lalwani.

Atlantis Hotel, Palm Jumeirah-Amazing Dubai

Nasty Old Lady.. LMAO!!

 Email from Varsha Lalwani.

 

Case Dismissed

Email Sent by Ferdinand Rima.

CASE DISMISSED!

After living what I felt was a 'decent' life, my time on earth came to the end. The first thing I remember is sitting on a bench in the waiting room of what I thought to be a courthouse. The doors opened and I was instructed to come in and have a seat by the defense table. As I looked around I saw the 'prosecutor. ‘He was a villainous looking gent who snarled as he stared at me. He definitely was the most evil person I have ever seen. I sat down and looked to my left and there sat My Attorney, a kind and gentle looking man whose appearance seemed so familiar to me, I felt I knew Him. The corner door flew open and there appeared the Judge in full flowing robes. He commanded an awesome presence as He moved across the room. I couldn't take my eyes off of Him. As He took His seat behind the bench, He said, 'Let us begin.' The prosecutor rose and said, 'My name is Satan and I am here to show you why this man belongs in hell.' He proceeded to tell of lies I told, things I stole, and in the past when I cheated others. Satan told of other horrible perversions once in my life and the more he spoke, the further down in my seat I sank. I was so embarrassed, I couldn't look at anyone, even my own Attorney, as the Devil told of sins even I completely forgotten about. As upset as I was at Satan for telling all these things about me, I was equally upset at My Attorney who sat there silently not offering any form of defense at all. I know I was guilty of those things, but I did some good in my life - couldn't that at least equal out part of the harm I'd done? Satan finished with a fury and said, 'This man belongs in hell, he is guilty of all I have charged and there is not a person who can prove otherwise.' When it was His turn, My Attorney first asked if He might approach the bench. The Judge allowed this over the strong objection of Satan, and beckoned Him to come forward. As He got up and started walking, I was able to see Him in His full splendor and majesty. I realized why He seemed so familiar; this was Jesus representing me, my Lord and my Savior. He stopped at the bench and softly said to the Judge, 'Hi, Dad,' then He turned to address the court. 'Satan was correct in saying this man sinned, I won't deny any of these allegations. And, yes, the wage of sin is death, and this man deserves to be punished.' Jesus took a deep breath and turned to His Father with outstretched arms and proclaimed, 'However, I died on the cross so this person might have eternal life and he accepted Me as his Savior, so he is Mine.' My Lord continued with, 'His name is written in the Book of Life and no one can snatch him from Me. Satan still does not understand yet. This man is not to be given justice, but rather mercy.' As Jesus sat down, He quietly paused, looked at His Father and said,’ There is nothing else that needs to be done. I've done it all.' The Judge lifted His mighty hand and slammed the gavel down. The following words bellowed from His lips... 'This man is free The penalty for him was already paid in full. Case dismissed' As my Lord led me away, I could hear Satan ranting and raving, 'I won't give up, I will win the next one.' I asked Jesus as He gave me my instructions where to go next, 'Have you ever lost a case?' Christ lovingly smiled and said, 'Everyone that comes to Me and asked Me to represent them, received the same verdict as you, 'PAID IN FULL.'

High School Life

Don't Let Stress Get In To You

Email Sent by Reah Aristan.

Please take a break whenever you can, don't let it come to this……….

One day a man was sitting in his office on the 19th floor of a building. A man came running into his office and shouted, 'John, your daughter, Anna just died in an accident right opposite this building'
The gentleman was in panic. Not knowing what to do, he jumped out through his office window. While going down, when he was near the 14th floor he remembered he didn't have a daughter named Anna. When he was near the 7th floor, he remembered he was not married yet. When he was about to hit the ground he remembered his name was not even John.

Ouch!

The Unemployed Graduate

Email Sent by Jhen Lopez.

KINDNESS IS GRACE YOU CANNOT FULLY GIVE AWAY, IT ALWAYS COMES BACK TO YOU. GOD BLESS YOU ALL !

An unemployed graduate woke up one morning and checked his pocket. All he had left was $10. He decided to use it to buy food and then wait for death as he was too proud to go begging. He was frustrated as he could find no job, and nobody was ready to help him.
He bought food and as he sat down to eat, an old man and two little children came along and asked him to help them with food as they had not eaten for almost a week. He looked at them. They were so lean that he could see their bones coming out. Their eyes had gone into the socket.
With the last bit of compassion he had, he gave them the food. The old man and children prayed that God would bless and prosper him and then gave him a very old coin.
The young graduate said to them 'you need the prayer more than I do'.
With no money, no job, no food, the young graduate went under the bridge to rest and wait for death. As he was about to sleep, he saw an old newspaper on the ground. He picked it up, and suddenly he saw an advertisement for people with old coins to come to a certain address.
He decided to go there with the old coin the old man gave him. On getting to the place, he gave the proprietor the coin. The proprietor screamed, brought out a big book and showed the young graduate a photograph. This same old coin was worth 3 million dollars.
The young graduate was overjoyed as the proprietor gave him a bank draft for 3 million dollars within an hour. He collected the Bank Draft and went in search of the old man and little children.
By the time he got to where he left them eating, they had gone. He asked the owner of the canteen if he knew them. He said no but they left a note for you. He quickly opened the note thinking it would lead him to find them.
This is what the note said: 'You gave us your all and we have rewarded you back with the coin' Signed God the Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost. 1 Kings 17:10-16; Matthew 11:28-30
Have you given all to Jesus Christ? If you haven't, do so today and he will surprise you.

PRAYER:
Here is your financial blessing! It's a simple prayer, you've got 30 seconds.
If you need a financial blessing, continue reading this e-mail.
Heavenly Father, most Gracious and Loving God,
I pray to you that you abundantly Bless my family and me. I know that you recognize, that a family is more than just a mother, father, sister, brother, husband and wife, but all Who believe and trust in you.
Father, I send up a prayer request for financial blessing for not only the person who sent this to me, but for Me and all that I have forwarded this message on to. And that the power of joined prayer by those who believe and trust in you is more powerful than anything.
I thank you in advance for your blessings.
Father God, deliver the person reading this right now and those who will read it in the near future from debt and debt burdens.
Release your Godly wisdom that I may be a good steward over all that You have given me Father, for I know how wonderful and mighty You are and how if we just obey You and walk in Your word and have the faith of a Mustard seed that You will pour out blessings.
I thank You now Lord for the recent blessings I have received and for the blessings yet to come because I know You are not done with me yet.
In Jesus name, I pray,
Amen


SEND THIS TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS ESPECIALLY THE ONE WHO SENT IT TO YOU AND YOU WILL BE BLESSED...

This Guy Can Lay Eggs..

Email Forwarded by Johanna Arcangel..

One Sneeze.. and scrambled eggs for everyone.. :D

You know you're a 90's kid if.. (Pinoy Version)

* Two words, ANG TV
* You own either a beeper or a cellphone with a size of an ice scraper
* You know the true identity of the POWER RANGERS
* You never missed an episode of "Sarah, Ang Munting Prinsesa" and "CEDIE"
* You know how to use a floppy disk
* You own neon colored clothes
* You've watched TITANIC at-least 3 times in the cinema
* You own a TAMAGOCHI
* You know how to use a roller blade
* You're a big fan of TGIS or GIMIK
* You are required to watch SINESKWELA or BAYANI and sometimes HIRAYAMANAWARI
*  You are hip if you're wearing a "LOW WAIST" pants and a "HANGING SHIRT/BLOUSE "
* You have a huge crush on PACO of introvoys, ELI of eraserheads and BAMBOO of
rivermaya
* You thought that MEL C of the SPICE GIRLS was a HE and NICK CARTER of the BACKSTREET BOYS was a SHE
* You know how to do the MACARENA, DYING INSIDE, ANGELINA and OH CAROLINA
* You know how to play POG and STICKERS (Like the one they put on a V8)
* You go gaga when you see WOWIE de GUZMAN and the Universal Motion Dancers (UMD) dance always.
* THE GWAPINGS
* You watched every episode of BATTLE OF THE BRAINLESS in TROPANG TURUMPO.
* CHICKEN!!
* RUSTOM PADILLA was still a hunk
* EAT BULAGA was still on Channel 2
* You know MR. BOGUS and THE EWOKS
* It was still MEL and JAY
* You're so exited about TUTUBAN
* You always go to STAR CITY, PAYANIG sa PASIG and BOOM na BOOM every christmas
* You've been to PARADISE Resort in bulacan
* You've been to CRAYOLA Factory, COKE Factory and PLANETARIUM for your field trip
* AIZA SEGUERRA still wears skirt
* You still know how to play tumbang preso, tanching and kalog
* You cramp your hand on playing TETRIS on your brand new BRICK GAME
* For girls, own at least 1 butterfly beret or your hands are full of plastic rings
* You collect kisses and stationery
* You literally pop the Gatorade cap
* For girls again.. you usually go early to school so you can play 10-20, chinese garter or jack stone before class
* You're so cool if you own a automatic pencil case
* Puzzle pens and magic pencil
* You have a BABY-G or at least an immitation
* You own a walkman
* You know the hand moves of the JUBILEE SONG
* You first watched THALIA in MARIMAR on channel 9
* You're always home when GHOST FIGHTER is on
* You have watched BATANG X, ROLLER BOYS, MAGIC KINGDOM and MAGIC TEMPLE
* You're still not allowed to watch BABY LOVE, but you still rent it on VHS
* NAWAWALA SI JENNIFER?!!

Songs that helped me when I'm down.

The Year 1908

This email was sent to me by an old colleague.. Varsha Lalwani.. enjoy!!

 

THE YEAR 1908

The year is 1908.
One hundred years ago.
What a difference a century makes!
Here are some statistics for the Year 1908 :

************ ********* ********* ******

The average life expectancy was 47 years.

Only 14 percent of the homes had a bathtub.

Only 8 percent of the homes had a telephone.

There were only 8,000 cars and only 144 miles of paved roads.

The maximum speed limit in most cities was 10 mph.

The tallest structure in the world was the Eiffel Tower!

The average wage in 1908 was 22 cents per hour.

The average worker made between $200 and $400 per year ..

A competent accountant could expect to earn $2000 per year,
A dentist $2,500 per year, a veterinarian between $1,500 and $4,000 per year, and a mechanical engineer about $5,000 per year.

More than 95 percent of all births took place at home.

Ninety percent of all doctors had no college education.

Instead, they attended so-called medical schools, many of which

Were condemned in the press AND the government as "substandard."

Sugar cost four cents a pound.

Eggs were fourteen cents a dozen.

Coffee was fifteen cents a pound.

Most women only washed their hair once a month, and used

Borax or egg yolks for shampoo.

Canada passed a law that prohibited poor people from

Entering into their country for any reason.

Five leading causes of death were:

1. Pneumonia and influenza
2. Tuberculosis
3. Diarrhea
4. Heart disease
5. Stroke

The American flag had 45 stars.

The population of Las Vegas , Nevada, was only 30!!!!

Crossword puzzles, canned beer, and ice tea

Hadn't been invented yet.

There was no Mother's Day or Father's Day.

Two out of every 10 adults couldn't read or write.

Only 6 percent of all Americans had graduated from high school

Marijuana, heroin, and morphine were all available over the counter at the local corner drugstores. Back then pharmacists said, "Heroin clears the complexion, gives buoyancy to the mind,regulates the stomach and bowels, and is, in fact, a perfect guardian of health." ( Shocking? DUH! )

Eighteen percent of households had at least

One full-time servant or domestic help.

There were about 230 reported murders in the ENTIRE ! U.S.A. !

And organized Barbershops didn't exist

Now I forwarded this from someone else without typing

It (all) myself, and sent it to you and others all over the world in a matter of seconds!

Try to imagine what it may be like in another 100 years.

 

IT STAGGERS THE MIND!!!!!!!!!!!

Bakit ng ba twisted minds?

cuz im pretty twisted.. lmao..
sometimes im happy.. sometimes im kinda emo..
sometimes i like love songs.. sometimes i like hiphop..
pretty twisted diba..

its not that i haven't found my genre yet.. i just like it this way..
masaya pag may variety.. iba iba..
sometimes we tend to stick to one thing and we couldn't see the bigger picture behind it..
im not saying na be like me.. i dont want anyone to be like me.. we are born different.. so be different in ur own special way..

A Collection of Cheeziest Pick Up Lines on the Net!

* Ipapapulis kita! Ninakaw mo kasi puso ko.

* May lahi ka bang keyboard? Type kasi kita.
* Kuto ka ba? Kasi I can't get you off my head.
* Para kang isang pustiso.. I can't smile without you.
* Teleserye ka ba?  Ang sarap mo kasing subaybayan eh!
* Hindi ka ba napapagod? You keep running in my mind eh. 
* may mmda ba rito? kasi nagkabanggaan puso natin!
* asthma ka ba? kasi you take my breath away.
* kung didiretsuhin ko ba to, diretso ba to sa puso mo?!
* ibibili kita ng salbabida mo kasi... malulunod ka sa pagmamahal ko.
* meron ka bang eraser? hindi kasi kita mabura sa isip ko.
* alam mo, ako ang "SCIENCE" at ikaw ang "LAB" ko!
* kumakain ka ba ng asukal? ang tamis kasi ng ngiti mo sken.
* kung posporo ka at posporo ako eh di MATCH tayo.
* pokemon ka ba? kasi I CHOOSE you! [di ba kei pikachu... ash: "pikachu! i choose you!"]
* you know what look good on you? ME.
* you must be the reason for global warming... because your HOT.
* you dropped your smile; can i pick it up for you?
* i think i need to call heaven. because they've lost one of their angels.
* can i have directions to your heart?
* i wish i were a tear so i could start in your eyes, live on your face, and die on your lips.
* i'm a thief, and i'm here to steal your heart.
* i lost my number, can i have yours?
* did the sun come out or did you just smiled at me?
* i just noticed you noticing me and i just wanted to give you notice that i noticed you too.
* Para kg TABLE OF CONTENTS. Dahil ikaw ang topic ng bawat pahina ng buhay ko.
* May lahi ka bang dictionary? 'Coz you give meaning to my life.
* Limang piso ka ba? Kasi sakto ka.
* Do you drink yakult? 'Coz everyday you're ok.
* my dictionary ka ba dyan? hindi ko kasi madefine ang salitang love without you..
* uy may free time ka ba? samahan mo naman ako sa psychiatrist.. dalhin ko raw kinababaliwan ko..
* nung minahal kita, daig ko pa natraffic sa EDSA. I can't move on..
*  alam mo ba, hindi tayo hayop.. hindi tayo tao.. at hindi tayo halaman.. BAGAY tayo! BAGAY!!"
* Impake ka na.. punta tau home for the aged.. kasi i wanna grow old with u..
* alarm clock ka ba? ginising mo natutulog kong puso..
* aanhin pa ang gravity kung lagi akong nahuhulog sau..
* kung gagawa ako ng alak pangalan mo gagamitin ko.. kasi lakas ng tama ko sau..
* tok! tok! tok! pwede bang pumasok sa buhay mo?
* langit na ba 'to? mukha ka kasing anghel..
* alam mo bang exam ako.. kaya sagutin mo na ko..
* kung bola ka at player ako, masho-shoot kaya kita.. hindi!! kasi lagi kitang nami-miss..
* uy! pa picture naman tau.. para ma-develop tau sa isa't isa..
* surgeon ka ba? kaw kasi nagbukas ng puso ko..
* para kang yosi.. hirap mong alisin sa buhay ko..
* sidecar ka ba? single kasi ako..
* may lason ba mga mata mo? nakakalason kasi mga titig mo..
* aanhin pa ang damo.. kung sau may tama na ako..
* kailangan mo ba ng tutor? turuan kitang mahalin ako..
* magaling ka ba sa math? kaw kasi sagot sa equation ng buhay ko..
* para kang centrum.. u make my life complete..
* pulis ba tatay mo? nahuli mo kasi puso ko..

Manila

I’m 2 years away from my beloved manila.. and i’ve already missed alot of things.. grabe.. parang kelan lang inis na inis ako sa baho at sa dami ng tao sa manila.. im not being a critic here.. im just expressing how i feel.. diba meron naman talagang time sa life natin that we hate being in manila.. ngaun ko lang na-realize how lucky i am to be there.. oo merong patayan at hold-up every where.. but looking pass through this things.. marami ka pa din mamimiss.. so i made my list kung ano ano ang namimiss ko sa manila.. hope u enjoy reading it..

Mga tambay sa kanto (minsan nakakatakot, pero most of the time harmless naman cla.. and isa din ako sa mga batang kalye nung teen years ko.. ehehe)

 

Mga naglalako ng pagkain (this isn’t a delivery service.. pero san ka naman makakaita ng lugar na ready to eat na, mura pa)

 

Quek quek, fish ball, kiquiam, calamares etc. (meron dito nun.. pero iba pa din ung satin.. lalo na pag nakikipag agawan ka sa mga kapit bahay mong takam na takam na mukhang 3 days ng hindi kumakain)

 

Isaw, Iud, Betamax, barbeque (grabe eto isa sa pinaka miss ko.. ung pupunta ka sa bilihan ng barbeque, ok lang kahit mangamoy usok ka at ok lang kahit walang t-shirt at sobrang pawis na pawis na si manong sa kapa-paypay.. solve naman pagnakain mo na)

 

Jeepney, pedicabs, tricyle ( unlike here matutusta ka na sa init ng araw sa paglalakad mo papuntang bus stop.. malas no nalang pag malayo ang bus stop sau.. nde naman pwedeng lagi naka taxi lalo na kung malapit lang pupuntahan mo.. )

 

Larong Kalye (piko, chinese garter, 10-20, patintero at marami pang iba.. hay grabe satin lang meron nyan.. malas na lang nung younger generations nde na nila naabot.. kasi wala silang inatupag kundi magbabad sa TV and Computer.. nakakamiss kaya ung maglalaro ka sa kalsada.. ung nakatapak ka pa.. kahit magkanda sugat sugat and paa mo ok lang.. kahit tawag na ng tawag sau ang nanay mo na may dalang pamalo ok pa din)

 

Divisoria (Naku wag mag deny.. kahit once in ur life i know u’ve been here na.. lalo na sa tutuban.. hay naku favorite hang out namin yan ng best friend ko.. mula high school hangang college.. kahit walang bibilhin.. tuwang tuwa na kaming maglakad at magpaikot ikot sa loob ng mall)

 

Fiesta (Grabe isa sa happy days natin.. being a filipino.. sobrang hilig natin sa happenings.. miss ko na to lalo na pag fiesta ng tondo.. ung tipong lakad kami ng lakad nagiisip kung kanino kami pupunta..tapos every house kakain kami then lakad nanamn.. parang wala kaming kabusugan.. Tpos nun pag gabi na kanya kanyang pili na ng amateur contest na panonoorin.. merong dance, singing at kung ano anong contest.. pero ako favorite ko ung ms. gay.. daig mo pa pumunta sa comedy bar pag nanood ka.. and in fairness ganda nila ah..)

Commercials (iba pa din talaga ang sense of humor ng mga pinoy, ive seen a lot of commercials pero wala pa din tatalo sa mga commercials natin.. dito kasi palibhasa walang free TV wala kaming commercials na nakikita.. meron man nde ko nmn maintindihan.. pero by the looks of it.. boringand corny cla..)

Smell (yes!! i miss the smell of manila.. dito kasi ang BO (Body Odor) eh isang normal scent na sa kanila.. nde man lang sila nahihiyang ipangalandakan ang napaka sangsang na amoy nila.. san ka ba naman makakakita ng taong 3 days na nde pa nagpapalit ng damit.. at papasok sa trabahong nde man lang makuhang maligo.. eeewww..)

 

mmm… eto na muna wala na ko maisip eh.. saka baka makita pa ko ng amo ko na kung ano ano ginagawa.. ehehe.. byes..

Have You Ever?

Have you ever felt that you are so low that nobody can help you??
It’s like no matter how hard you try, people keeps on pulling you down..
You never felt that you are capable of doing anything worthy..
Nobody appreciates everything you do..
It’s like your so small in a big world..
Nobody knows you even exist..
You cant even hear your own voice to think that your already screaming on the top of your lungs.
You didn’t even know if you belong somewhere or to someone..
It’s hard to belong in a fast phase world.
Things keep on changing…
People keep on running..
Feels like you were left behind with no one..

Just the sound of your heart beat and the drop of your tears..

Oo.. PINAY AKO!!

Isang ordinaryong araw nanaman sa buhay ko.. eto walang magawa sa opisina.. naghahanap ng gagawin.. naisipan kong mag surf sa internet.. una nag titngin lang ako ng mga recipe.. parang feel ko kasing magluto.. pero habang nag
se-search ako.. may lumabas na filipina girls.. napaisip ako kung anong
napaloob sa search na ito..


Nagsimula akong magbukas ng mga websites at kung anong meron dito.. pero napaisip ako.. talaga bang ganon na ka talamak ang pagiging mail order bride natin.. napakarami nating mga kababayan ang mas pipiliing makapang asawa ng
isang dayuhan kesa mga kapwa pinoy.. ndi kio sila masisisi.. oo pagiging
praktikal ang dahilan ng iba kung bakit nila ginagawa ang mga bagay na ito..


Pero ang hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan nating huthutan ang matatandang dayuhan para sa ating mga pansariling panganagilangan.. napakaraming bumabatikos sa mga ganitong gawain.. pero talamak na talamak pa
din..


Napakaraming humahang sa kagandahan ng isang pilipina.. isa sa mga nabasa ko ang tanong na kung ang pilipina ay ang pinakamagaganda.. sus tinatanong pa ba un.. (joke).. pero kidding aside.. nde mo naman masasabi kung tayo talaga ang
pinaka maganda.. sabi nga nila ‘Beauty is in the eye of the beholder’ tumpak..
nde ko sinasabi sa mga ibang lahi na purihin ang itsura ng mga kababayan ko..
pero nde din naman siguro tamang pintasan ang pisikal na itsura natin..


Oo ang mga pinay maliliit, pango at kayumangi.. pero naisip nyo na bang lumibot sa asya at tignan ang mga karatig bansa ng pilipinas.. ang mga thailander, vietnamese at malaysian ay halos kamukha ng natin..HIndi ko
pinipilit ang mga taong magandahan sa itsura ng mga pilipina pero hindi ba nila
naisip kung nagagandahan din tau sa kanila.. (duh..)


Buti na lang nde na iisa ang batayn ng kagandahan ngaun.. dati pag maputi ka at matangka d maganda ka ka na.. buti lumalawak ang isip ng mga tao sa pagtingin sa kagandahan…

Katulad na lang ng model na si Tyra Banks.. prino-promote nya ang beauty with enthicity.. binubuksan nya ang isip ng kanyang mga televiewers na may iba’t ibang angulo ang kagandahan..

Kaya para sa mga pinay.. itaas ang bandilang kayumangi.. pilipino ka.. IPAGMALAKI MO!!!

Pamilya

Ano nga ba ang pamilya??


Ang isang typical na pamilya ay merong ama, ina at mga anak. Pero sa’ting mga pilipino kadalasan ang lolo, lola, tito, tita at mga pinsan ay kasama na ng ating pamilya..


Napaka sensitive ng topic na to.. pero bakit ito ang napili ko.. wala lang.. gusto ko lang magpaka senti..

Para sa mga bumabasa.. hindi ko sinulat to para husgahan nyo ang pagkatao ko.. i just want to have my freedom of speech.. if by any chance meron akong nasaktan.. i didn’t mean it.. I’m just stating the facts from my side of the
story and the things that I’ve remember.. so if you don’t have something nice
to say.. it’s better to shut up and read..


I was a daughter of a OFW family.. meaning wala sa tabi ko ang mga parents ko while i was growing up.. they we’re abroad working, so kagaya din ng mga ibang OFW children, we were living with our lolo’s and lola’s..

Masaya naman ang naging childhood ko, i wasn’t deprived with all the childhood antics.. nakapaglaro ako sa kalsada.. naliligo sa ulan.. tumatakbo ng walang tsinelas at marami pang iba.. i have toys.. maybe they’re not all
expensive pero ok na din..


Masaya nung bata ka.. wala kang iniisip kundi maglaro.. you hate being at school.. sometimes you hate people na tinatawag ka para kumain or matulog or simply pumasok ka sa loob ng bahay dahil gabi na..


My dad died when i was around 5.. i didn’t know the true meaning of death way back then so hindi ako umiyak.. i was too young to understand what is happening.. the last memory i had with him was on his death bed.. almost
lifeless.. my grandparents asked me to kiss him.. but i didn’t know that I’m
already saying goodbye.. forever..


My mom had to go back to Dubai that time.. or else wala kaming kakaining magkapatid.. so she did..

That time ok lang.. kasi bata ka.. you don’t understand kung bakit nila ginagawa yun.. pero sa mga naiwan.. mahirap..


While i was growing up.. naririnig ko ang mga classmates ko talking about their parents.. pero papatalo ba naman ako.. syempre bida din ako.. pero come to think of it.. alam ko ba talaga ang mga sinasabi ko.. nasaksihan ko ba ang
mga kinekwento ko.. or it just came out from the mouth of someone in my
family.. when that came into me.. i begun to wonder…


Ano nga ba ang pamilya.. dapat ba nanjan ang tatay, nanay at mga kapatid para matawag mong pamilya kau?? dapat ba ang mga magulang ay nsa tabi mo para masabing masaya kau?? magulo.. naguguluhan ako…


Pag nagkaka-kwentuhan.. at pinag-kwekwentuhan ang bahay.. minsan napaisip ako.. may bahay ba talaga ako?? siguro bahay meron.. pero ung tahanan.. meron nga ba?? lumaki kaming papalit palit.. dito.. jan.. dito uli at jan.. kaya
minsan iniisip ko.. san nga ba ang bahay ko?? sino ba ang pamilya ko??


Naiingit ako kapag nagkwekwentuhan ang mga kaibigan ko tungkol sa pamilya nila.. hindi man masaya.. pero kumpleto.. pero un nga ba ang gusto ko?? o hinahanap ko lang dahil hindi ko naranasan..


Dahil dito.. hindi marangyang buhay ang pinangarap ko kagaya ng iba.. kundi kumpletong pamilya.. tatay, nanay at mga anak.. mababaw ba?? siguro sa mga taong lumaki na may nanay, tatay at tinatawag na bahay.. pero sa katulad ko..
eto ang ultimate dream ko.. to build my own family.. siguro nde kagaya ng nasa
fairytale o nasa pilikula na palaging may happy ending.. kahit marami sigurong
paghihirap ok na.. basta may matawag akong akin.. PAMILYA KO..


Mahal ko ang mga relatives ko.. lahat sila.. kahit pasaway ako.. at hindi ko ganong sinasabi.. mahal ko sila.. un ang alam ko.. pero in 24 years of my life.. nde naman sigurong masama kung pangarapin ko pa din ang makabuo nga
family..


Dahil dito i ended up in a wrong relationship..


Palagi akong nasasaktan.. in every aspect you can imagine.. I’ve been to that phase.. pero i always go back.. ask me why.. sa kanya ko lang nahanap ung pamilyang hinahanap ko.. ung may uuwian ka at sasabihin mong akin.. nde man
kumpleto.. i was building a family in my dreams..

Siguro sakin lang pero thats the closest thing i can get from getting one.. ang babaw no.. at walang reasoning kung iisipin.. pero mali bang maghangad ng isang bagay na matagal mo nang minimithi at makukuha mo to kahit
masaktan at magsakripisyo ka..

Alam ko mali.. pero bakit I’m willing to give up and sacrifice everything just to have this so called family??


Kaya bago mahuli ang lahat.. to my family.. eventhough i dont see you, speak with you often.. i want you to know that i love you..

At sa mga taong tine-take for granted ang family nila.. always be thankful you have them.. or you’ll end up like me.. having no one..

12 AM

12 am.. and am still up… a lot of thoughts..lots of things.. trying to tell myself that things will work out just fine.. thinking bout the past.. present and future.. thinking bout people i know.. places i’ve been and wanna go..
things i’ve done and wanna do..

I was thinking wow.. am already 25!! what could i expect next?? will i live longer?? will i get married? will i have a child?? haha.. funny isn’t it.. feels like it was only yesterday i was running down the street playing
hopscotch..


Time just fly so fast.. one day we’ll just wake up and say.. hey.. who is that old lady standing in front of the mirror.. oh yeah.. it’s me..


Sometimes i miss being a kid specially in high school.. i wasnt that popular.. im not a nerd.. not a bully, maybe am just a typical high school student who enjoyed her life..

i miss playing outside our house..

i miss running in the rain..

i miss waking up in the morning cramming…


i miss attending classes..


i miss standing in front of our classroom doors…


i miss cutting classes..

i miss waiting for my teachers..

i miss hanging out on the streets…

i miss field trips..


i miss sleepovers..


i miss school activities..


i miss curfew..


This list will be endless if i tell you everything that ive i missed.. but you know what i missed most?? i miss being a kid.. no worries.. no big problems.. but hey.. life isn’t a fairytale.. theres no prince charming and
hell there’s no fairy godmother as well…


In the end it will be you and your decisions.. you seeing ahead of things.. and you looking forward.. looking back isn’t bad.. but clinging on to it is..

Well guys happy reading almost 1 now.. am off to bed.. need to wake up early and go to work!! have a good one every one.. miss ya’ll

Notebook

Simula ng lumabas ang mga libro ni Bob Ong ang dami nang lumabas na aspiring writers.. para kasing nagkaroon ng freedom sa writing.. walang format,
walang grammar.. sulat lang.. basta meron kang ball pen at papel
qualified writer ka na!!!

Ako isa din ako sa mga aspiring writers.. hindi man ako yumaman sa pagsusulat… hindi man ako sumikat, magkaron lang ako ng 2 – 3 audience
pwede na.. yung tipong nakaka-relate at nakaka-appreciate ng mga walang
katuturang bagay na pinag sususulat ko.. (Drama!!!)

Ako bilang writer… Nakakatawa.. hahaha!!!

Nagsimula akong magsulat noong 3 years old pa lang ako.. Joke!!!

Eto seryoso na…

Ako bilang writer…

Nagsimula ang hilig ko sa pagsusulat nung grade 4 ako… noon pa lang mahililg na kong mag day dream… yung tipong pang teleserye.. by episode… pag hindi
ko natapos.. lagging to be continued.. laging may next episode…

Pero isang araw nanawa din ako.. nakakalimutan ko kasi ung last episode ng mga day dream ko… kaya ayun ball pen at notebook naman ang pinag tripan
ko…

Nakakita ako ng ball pen at mga gamit na notebook ko at ng ate ko.. kinuha ko yung mga blank pages… gamit ang hairpin at yarn.. tinahi ko.. ayos!!!
Parang bago na ulit.. pwede ko ng sulatan!!!

Yung mga unang stories ko para bang script ng play.. parang ganito..

AKO: Kumusta??

SIYA: OK lang..

AT SABAY SILANG TUMAWA… THE END…

Parang ganon.. inspiration ko non ay yung ANG TV the movie.. at ang ka love team ko ay si PATRICK GARCIA!!! Ayos diba kasama ako sa mga bida..
Bakit ba ako ang writer eh.. marunong ka pa!!!

Hangang sa dumating ang GIMIK, TGIS at Magic Temple .. ayan kung sino sino tuloy nagging ka love team ko.. grabe ang ganda ko!!!

Naka 7 – 8 stories din ako.. tapos dumating ang high school at nagising din ako sa kabaliwan ko… in short.. bumalik na ko sa earth..

High School.. sabi nila dito nagaganap ang lahat ng first.. first love.. first kiss at kung ano ano pa.. lahat kasi gusto mong i-try..
pakiramdam mo kasi your old enough to do some certain things… in
between a child and adult kung baga… pero ako meron din akong 1^st.. ditto ko isinulat ang first English poem ko…oo totoo!!! Walang joke.. English nga… naka buo din ako ng isang notebook na
tagalog, English at tag-lish na tula , short stories at kung ano ano
pa.. ung iba totoo… ung nararamdaman ko.. experiences ko.. pero ung
iba… gawa gawa ko lang… ehehehe…

Hangang sa nag college ako.. may isa akong nakilalang mahilig ding magsulat.. adik din… pinahiram ko ung notebook ko… nagandahan ata sa mga pinag
sususulat ko… (walang bribe ung huh.. ehehe) .. ipinabasa sa iba ayun
napag pasa-pasahan na at tuluyan nang hindi nakabalik sakin..bad trip nga.. ilang taon ko din kasing kinolekta un..

Time pass.. nag modernize na din ako.. kasi nauso na ang mga blogs.. kaya dun ko ngaun nilalagay ang mga sentimyento ko sa buhay…

At ngaun napag tripan ko nanamang sumulat… gamit ang A4 size na envelope na kinuha ko galing opisina… binuksan ko para maging 2 sided.. nagmumukmok habang nagbiyabyahe pauwi…